Mother’s last wish.

When it felt like my life was in crisis,
with all the vices and devices.
Like the early morning cigarettes & coffee that makes me feel anxious,
I knew I had to run away and rethink my choices.

Away from all the masses,
I went where the mountains met the sky and the greenest grass is,
by the flowing river that cancels all my noises,
I asked mother for all my answers.

Under the Light & Sound that Dances,
as I was waiting for my answers,
there she blew, the wind of voices.
Telling me why I can’t live my life like this.

“Ah! Troubled young man from urban classes.
Concrete, steel, steam and shatterproof glasses,
it’s been long since you forgot what your past is,
the times you walked barefoot on mud and grasses.
Stretching for miles and finding your own answers,
your ancestors never forgot how selfless Mother Earth is.
Until you took it all and cashed it,
for fast cars, fancy phones & beach houses,
bought fast food, fed your ego, sold your genius that was priceless.
Looked up to the sky & prayed like that’s where the God is.
It’s Goddess, you killed your own mother, can’t you see how bloody your hand is?

So, hear me son, this is my last wish,
it’s not too late, reinstate,
you don’t have to live a life like this.”

Not therapy.

Do you ever think about the existential void
and let your day turn blue?
These thoughts that keep running through your mind,
don’t worry, it bothers me too.
Here’s something I learnt through time,
in case you have no clue.
Just tell the truth and make it rhyme
even if you are out of tune.
But what’s important is you keep that curve, keep that smile
because sometimes, that’s really all we can do.
So go ahead and drop those lines,
like these I just did for you.

Angst.

There are these voices that only I can hear now,
mocking me and making all these funny sounds.
These noises that get crowded and loud,
Always trying to pull me back to the ground.

Telling me that the choices I’ve made are reckless and wrong,
I couldn’t see it because I’m blind and too proud,
That I’ll be lost forever and never be found,
it’s all for waste, my leaps and bounds.

Looks like I’ll always be lonely, never finding love,
stand and stare helplessly, as if I’m tightly wound,
and all I can do is occasionally frown,
as I watch my whole life come crashing down.

I’ve tried it all and I’m just tired.
I’m not weird, just differently wired.